An unlikely source
I was looking at my Facebook page today. I noticed a post from a “friend” that mentioned she was having the urge to write. She said it was due to my over enthusiasm for blogging. She then asked if she should use pen and paper or blog. To the first comment I responded that writing is good for writings sake, and that she was a really good writer. To the second comment I expressed how writing with pen and paper is an exercise in self discovery which is personal. Blogging is sharing with the world those same feelings. You have to be prepared to share and have feedback on that sharing. I told her it is not what you don’t know, it is what you don’t know you don’t know. I learned that during a class I took one time, it was the only thing from the whole three days that struck me as profound. There are a lot of things that I know I don’t know. I worry about the things that I don’t know that I don’t know. Worry may be the wrong word, concern may be the right one. I know that one day I will come into a critical situation and be face to face with something that I had no idea that I needed to know.
I pride myself on knowing a little bit of everything. Over the years I have picked up little bits on knowledge, bits that allow me to be conversant on just about any subject. I can quickly call up that knowledge, and with the advent of the internet I can get more detailed information quickly. The issue that I have is what if I don’t know that I will have to know a little about something? What if I have no idea how to find the information that I may need. It is a matter of pride. Ego would be a better word here. My ego would suffer if I had to admit that to someone. I know that is childish but on the road to self discovery you have to be honest with yourself.
Here is what I have decided here and now. Don’t worry about it. If I run into a situation that this becomes an issue then I will make the best that I know how. Even this late in life you have insecurities and deal with them.
What about you? Do you have something that you have insecurity about? Something that sounds silly once you write it down, like this does now to me??