Does it mean anything?
Several people have asked me what the image in my header means. The answer to that question is both nothing and everything. I know that sounds like a cop out. To explain that a little bit better, I have to go back and explain a little bit about what makes Lee who he is.
In the fifth grade I got bitten by the reading bug. I did not start out like most children reading fiction I concentrated mostly on nonfiction. Such lofty works as the rise and fall of the Third Reich, the rise and fall of the roman empire, and biographies of our presidents filled of the hours that I had to read. In the seventh grade the librarian, whom I was very good friends with, suggested that I brought my horizons and delve into the world of fiction. I personally did not see the worth of it at the time. However as I respected her opinion I asked for suggestions, much to my surprise she asked me what I was interested in, instinctively I answered Science. She suggested that I try science fiction with authors like Asimov, Zillazney, and Bradbury. The very first science fiction book that I read was R Is For Rocket. I was hooked, I couldn’t believe that I’ve overlooked such an enjoyable pastime all this time. I was a sponge I read all of the science fiction books that I could get my hands on. My mother was a little concerned at times than I did not get out and play with your children. I had to make a concerted effort to keep her off my back. As time went on, I started running out of pure science fiction to read. I branched out into the fantasy genre, and sparked my interest a new. I would while away the hours reading about Kings and Queens, Sorcerers, Knights, Dragons, and all other sorts of imaginary creatures. Looking back, I have to admit now, that I enjoyed fantasy more than I enjoyed pure science fiction.How does reading have anything to do with the header that is on this page?
I continued to read science fiction and fantasy well into my high school years. After I graduated from high school I joined the United States Navy. I went into a highly technical field that was populated mostly by nerds, which I found out quickly I was one of. One evening after coming back to the barracks from dinner I walked by a friend store and heard laughter and excited talk. The door was open so I stuck my head in to see what the commotion was about. Here they were sitting on the floor with these little paper books, dice, and cards talking about fighting orcs. I was intrigued. It didn’t take long for them to notice me standing in the door, after all the obligatory introductions I asked them what they were doing. Get a bunch of nerds together and it is surprising how excited they get telling someone else about a nerdy pastime. This game, they said, was called swords & sorcery. It was an imagination game, in that, everything that happened in the game had to be imagined. Immediately I thought this was the game for me. I had spent the majority of my post adolescent life imagining the scenes from books that I was reading. I ask them right then and there if I could join the game. The obvious a leader of the group said ” sure, we could use some cannon fodder.” This game was, of course, the precursor to Dungeons & Dragons. That’s right, I am a Dungeons & Dragons player. If you don’t know what Dungeons & Dragons is you should Google it, you will find that it is still a rather popular game. In a game you assume the life of your character, he/she could be a fighter, a magic user, a thief, or a priest. At that time in my life I was studying about religions so the character of priest intrigued me, in the game there are also called clerics. The cleric is able to build up divine power which is then used to either heal his friends or smite his enemies. As you gain levels, the object of the game, you deal with angels, demigods, and ultimately your god. As time went on I experimented with other character classes, but would always come back to the cleric. The group that I played with stayed together for about five years. I was then transferred to another ship that was stationed in Italy. I put out a few feelers for people who played the game, but did not get that much response. Either they have enough players already or by that time the game’s popularity had waned. I kept all of my books and all of my paraphernalia over the years hoping to find a new group to play with. Time Marches on, I got out of the navy, and started my new life as a civilian. I ultimately moved to Portland Oregon, where to my surprise I found a group of people playing Dungeons & Dragons. When I expressed interest in playing they welcomed me into their group.Unfortunately, my wife at the time did not like the amount of time that I would spend playing the game. She was not interested in playing and did not understand why the game was so addictive. One thing I had forgotten to mention is, when I was in the navy I usually played while the ship was out at sea. Although I had told my wife about the hours that I would wile away playing the game; she had never really experienced that. I have to admit that the game took more time than just playing; you also had to make preparations to play, and keep track of all of the things that happened while you were playing. I would estimate that it took an additional 4 hours each week to do all of the extra things besides just playing. Our group would meet every other Friday and basically play from 7:00 PM till dawn. Ultimately, after about six months of playing every other Friday I had to give it up. My wife at the time just could not take the commitment of time it took to play the game. So I boxed up all of my books and paraphernalia again put it on a shelf and tried to put it out of my mind.
A New Age Dawns
Fast forward approximately 15 years. We now have the Internet, video games, a new wife, and middle age. You would be surprised, or maybe not, how hard it is to find Dungeons & Dragons players that are between the age of 40 and 50. It would seem that most of them gave that up as a young person’s game. I have to admit that it didn’t bother me too much. The reason being that if I really wanted to start playing again I would need to invest approximately $200 to buy new books and paraphernalia as mine were antiquated. As I had turned into a computer geek and enjoyed all kinds of software and searching on the Internet I came upon several video games that were based on the pen and paper version of Dungeons & Dragons. The one that intrigued me the most is called Never Winter Nights. I believe that it was 2004 when I bought my first Never Winter Nights game. My present wife and I did not fight too much about my addiction to this game. We finally came to an understanding of how much time I could invest each week.
How This All Ties Together
The image in my header is of an avenging angel. I found this image online quite by accident. I was playing Never Winter Nights 2, and in the game you have an opportunity to turn to the “dark side”; if you do then there will be an avenging angle encounter and you have the opportunity of dying in the game. The image in the game was good but I thought to myself that there must be a better image than that out there. I did a Google search for images of the avenging angels. This was one of the very first that I found. I have to admit that I fell in love with this image immediately. I have used it as my Facebook image on and off ever since. When I started this blog I wanted to use that image in the header. However without some modification it looked horrible. At the time I was taking a class of the Dixie State College that was teaching me how to use Photoshop. So I took the image of the avenging angel made them stand in front of each other and then flipped two of them and I had that header.
You could say that it means everything to me, because when I look at it a flood of memories comes to mind. You could also say that it means nothing to me as it is just a picture I found while searching on the Internet. When I was searching I found hundreds of other images concerning avenging angels, this one just caught my eye. I could have chosen another image just as easily.